I'm with you! (Lapsed Anglican/Episcopalian, me) The subconsciously praying interpretation actually I find kind of annoying, to be honest. If one feels one cannot pray (and I've felt that!) and then finds comfort in prayer-like aspects of the world, it's patronizing to have someone tell you're secretly, /actually/ praying. Unbeknownst to yourself. Uh...no. No, I'm not. I think /I/ would be the one to know that.